I hate tidying up thing... Seemingly, it implies I have to move on from my current life. People hate changes because they dont have courage to face sth they dont know. I hate change becasue I have to make up my mind. Plus, tidying up means reviewing your old stuff, your success, your failure and your regret. Recently , I heard so many girls' feeling, or the real face of them.. Many of them are lack of confidence, many of them tried to give up herself and doing some silly stuff. Because they think no one cares about them anymore. Some are lying all the time to make people believe they are a good preson!! " I am a weak person, yes I am.. just let me be " <--- I hate these words, but there are numerous girls who said it to someone else or to themselves. They said it because they need someone to care about them as a weak person. I just dont know why some people are so addicted in living in their life. I know it would happen on guys too , but it seems like i have no clue on what guys think... which means i am kind of weak too.
I am trying to find my path, everyone does ... and now i turn to a point that my path isnt decided by me anymore. Or i would say i am not lucky enough to decide it from the beginning.
There are still happy things gei... I went to play firework on 7/4, although i burn my hands + eat jor so much smoke.. I folded myself in MU for 4 days to study C++ , I was so afraid of it since it is hard, but i learn more about it. A good start to work on my weakness. |